waiting & wondering

well, i find myself in a place where i'm not always comfortable being. it's a time of waiting. . . and wondering. . . 

what exactly will our time in china look like? where will be going? what will we be doing? will there be western toilets? (lame i know, but squatties are so foreign to us, and it's such a luxury, believe it or not!) will we be able to see our students from last year? where will we be staying? is it okay to bring my laptop? will it be safe?

and when will i have answers to these questions?

more than likely, when we go, and when we begin to have our experiences. it's a time of just walking by faith, not by sight. . . gee. . . sound familiar?

he's teaching me lessons even before we leave. just go. . . i have everything under control. . . i have you just where i want you. . . not confident in what you already know, but trusting in what i'm going to teach you. clinging to me. . . not in your abilities and strengths.

i guess i still have a lot to learn.